[It's a bit of a slap to the face, seeing how deciding to be honest about his own feelings (something that has never come easy) seems to have done nothing but ruin what's right in front of him.
He's on his feet now, but he can't quite bring himself to walk right over. The way you looked earlier and the way you sounded just --]
Josh...
[That comes out soft and choked. His chest feels tight as hell, and his mind is very slowly but certainly breaking down, filling with static.]
Josh, please, I...
[I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry.]
Please don't leave.
[He was going to lose this one, wasn't he? This was going to be just another royal fuck-up to add to his growing list of fuck-ups. Another thing he couldn't have, no matter how he tried to keep it close, to keep it safe.]
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He's on his feet now, but he can't quite bring himself to walk right over. The way you looked earlier and the way you sounded just --]
Josh...
[That comes out soft and choked. His chest feels tight as hell, and his mind is very slowly but certainly breaking down, filling with static.]
Josh, please, I...
[I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry.]
Please don't leave.
[He was going to lose this one, wasn't he? This was going to be just another royal fuck-up to add to his growing list of fuck-ups. Another thing he couldn't have, no matter how he tried to keep it close, to keep it safe.]