[He's listening to all of that, and not doing anything but move in just a little bit closer and keep his eyes right on you.
Yeah, he... he probably should have known better, huh? Perhaps he had been frightened by how easily the two of you could connect, how safe you could make him feel, and how much he had come to trust you. That always throws the Blade King left of center, and often resulted in the worst possible outcomes.
His voice, when he speaks, is steadier now, and full of sincerity.]
I'm sorry, Josh. That was really stupid of me, and I know now that I should have trusted you more.
[And, how does he say this next part...?
Actually.
No words, then. He's just going to move in, still with that deliberate care, and kiss you. It's soft, chaste, coaxing, and incredibly gentle.
He's so fucking scared of losing you, and maybe he's also rather tired of missing out or losing or simply not getting what he wants regardless of what he does. This entire exercise has been nerve-wracking and worrisome and he still doesn't know if this is even the right choice to make, but he's certain of three things:
1.) He screwed up. 2.) He has to find some way of making it better. 3.) He really, really wants this.
If Josh won't have him after this because of what he's done, then perhaps that's just what he deserves. He'll think on it later, though: he has to try.]
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Yeah, he... he probably should have known better, huh? Perhaps he had been frightened by how easily the two of you could connect, how safe you could make him feel, and how much he had come to trust you. That always throws the Blade King left of center, and often resulted in the worst possible outcomes.
His voice, when he speaks, is steadier now, and full of sincerity.]
I'm sorry, Josh. That was really stupid of me, and I know now that I should have trusted you more.
[And, how does he say this next part...?
Actually.
No words, then. He's just going to move in, still with that deliberate care, and kiss you. It's soft, chaste, coaxing, and incredibly gentle.
He's so fucking scared of losing you, and maybe he's also rather tired of missing out or losing or simply not getting what he wants regardless of what he does. This entire exercise has been nerve-wracking and worrisome and he still doesn't know if this is even the right choice to make, but he's certain of three things:
1.) He screwed up.
2.) He has to find some way of making it better.
3.) He really, really wants this.
If Josh won't have him after this because of what he's done, then perhaps that's just what he deserves. He'll think on it later, though: he has to try.]