[He's relieved to see that you're looking better and that he's somehow managed to put you at ease again. Call it crazy, but he's just a little hyper-vigilant right now. (Because he's still worried that if this does fall through somewhere down the line, it's going to be because of him.)
Still. Honesty is good, right?]
He called me out on it. Sniffed out the fact that I was wrecked over you. [Laughing just a bit now, soft and rueful.] I guess I should be thankful that he ended up slipping.
[Because, admittedly, if Taning had not, Hikaru would have had more time to lock away more things and promptly forget all about it on purpose. It would have been easier to hide, and get one step closer to falling into the motions of staying far, far away from you, for better or for worse.]
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[He's relieved to see that you're looking better and that he's somehow managed to put you at ease again. Call it crazy, but he's just a little hyper-vigilant right now. (Because he's still worried that if this does fall through somewhere down the line, it's going to be because of him.)
Still. Honesty is good, right?]
He called me out on it. Sniffed out the fact that I was wrecked over you. [Laughing just a bit now, soft and rueful.] I guess I should be thankful that he ended up slipping.
[Because, admittedly, if Taning had not, Hikaru would have had more time to lock away more things and promptly forget all about it on purpose. It would have been easier to hide, and get one step closer to falling into the motions of staying far, far away from you, for better or for worse.]