[Well, the look on your face is making his own gaze flinch away from you. It's difficult, beating back the urge to apologize again.]

It just never works out for me, with anyone. And I really don't want to lose you. I don't... [Choking up a bit, and swallowing the lump in his throat before speaking again.] I don't think I can take it if you go.

[Of course, that will inevitably happen. You're going to go first. Everyone does.]