[ But that only meant that you were going to watch him break down, maybe even lose his mind, die, and come back with absolutely no memory of who you were for at least a decade. And all that time, you were going to get older.
Neither of you were going to be able to go back to the way that you started. It'll either be him returning to you much older/already gone, or you waiting on him, losing the best seconds of your life to somebody who might not even be worth the wait in the first place. ]
I...
[ It's hard to speak over that chunk of his heart stuck in his throat. Your resolve frightens him. Being so confident, so sure, rarely ever amounts to anything in the face of how royally fucked up every aspect of his life is. ]
Maybe... maybe I...
[ Maybe I shouldn't have been so selfish. Maybe I shouldn't have said yes.
And it hurts so much to even have to think of it that way. ]
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Neither of you were going to be able to go back to the way that you started. It'll either be him returning to you much older/already gone, or you waiting on him, losing the best seconds of your life to somebody who might not even be worth the wait in the first place. ]
I...
[ It's hard to speak over that chunk of his heart stuck in his throat. Your resolve frightens him. Being so confident, so sure, rarely ever amounts to anything in the face of how royally fucked up every aspect of his life is. ]
Maybe... maybe I...
[ Maybe I shouldn't have been so selfish. Maybe I shouldn't have said yes.
And it hurts so much to even have to think of it that way. ]