Shhhh, [ he's pressing kisses to your brow and your cheeks, framing your face with his hands and gathering you close. How can he tell you that he's thought it over, turned it around in his head -- what else was he supposed to do after that engagement gone bad in some fucked up cavern in hell, after crying his heart out to Jessie because he'd made the choice to bring Kaz back at the cost of losing more time with you.
He doesn't regret bringing his baby brother back, he knows he couldn't live with coming home to see the look in your eyes if he'd had to come back and tell you that he'd wanted to be selfish and have you instead -- because there was no choice. Kaz had to live, that meant losing more years with you, year's he's added up to time waiting.
Maybe he won't be the same boy you fell in love with when you come back around. He'll be older, for sure, and you'll be young. But he's glimpsed Deirdra and Gideon together. They make it work, and he doesn't have to look further than his father to see that what the hell is a decade when you're waiting for the only person you know you'll ever love in your lifetime. ]
Babe, it's okay. [ His lips are close to yours now, and tears are tracking lines down his own cheeks. ] I know I'm getting into.
[ It comes back to that, doesn't it? Not enough time, too little to go on, you frightened as shit and thinking that you don't deserve something good. He knows he's not a saint. He knows that it's selfish of him to want you to be his, even if it's going to put you through watching him go. If anything, he's an asshole for knowing that and wanting this still.
But he loves you so much. He's never done anything as impulsive as deciding that after less than a year together he'd like nothing better than to be yours for as long as he's still breathing -- but he wants it. He wants it so badly it's like the only air he could ever breathe. ]
I don't want to miss out. [ He's catching your chin again, keeping your face in place and looking you straight in the eye. Please, please, please see that you mean the world to him. ] I didn't die and come back with a second shot at living just to watch it pass me by.
I want to think of what I want, even just this once. And I want you.
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He doesn't regret bringing his baby brother back, he knows he couldn't live with coming home to see the look in your eyes if he'd had to come back and tell you that he'd wanted to be selfish and have you instead -- because there was no choice. Kaz had to live, that meant losing more years with you, year's he's added up to time waiting.
Maybe he won't be the same boy you fell in love with when you come back around. He'll be older, for sure, and you'll be young. But he's glimpsed Deirdra and Gideon together. They make it work, and he doesn't have to look further than his father to see that what the hell is a decade when you're waiting for the only person you know you'll ever love in your lifetime. ]
Babe, it's okay. [ His lips are close to yours now, and tears are tracking lines down his own cheeks. ] I know I'm getting into.
[ It comes back to that, doesn't it? Not enough time, too little to go on, you frightened as shit and thinking that you don't deserve something good. He knows he's not a saint. He knows that it's selfish of him to want you to be his, even if it's going to put you through watching him go. If anything, he's an asshole for knowing that and wanting this still.
But he loves you so much. He's never done anything as impulsive as deciding that after less than a year together he'd like nothing better than to be yours for as long as he's still breathing -- but he wants it. He wants it so badly it's like the only air he could ever breathe. ]
I don't want to miss out. [ He's catching your chin again, keeping your face in place and looking you straight in the eye. Please, please, please see that you mean the world to him. ] I didn't die and come back with a second shot at living just to watch it pass me by.
I want to think of what I want, even just this once. And I want you.