[ Because of that, you'll end up seeing how haunted he looks the moment those eyes turn up towards yours, just as much as you'll be able to feel the way he's trembling. The anguish, stress and grief are all hitting him at once now, long after the fact. ]
But I could have fucked up. I could have --
[ He could have killed you. The thought alone is enough to send another fresh wave of pain through him, rendering him incapable of finishing what he started to say.
(And he is honest to Elaine upset that you did that, and it isn't because of what you pushed him to do since that's just what he'd do for anybody who mattered to him. It's because there could have been another way. Things could have still worked out without any of this. You didn't have to be so reckless. He has to believe that.) ]
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But I could have fucked up. I could have --
[ He could have killed you. The thought alone is enough to send another fresh wave of pain through him, rendering him incapable of finishing what he started to say.
(And he is honest to Elaine upset that you did that, and it isn't because of what you pushed him to do since that's just what he'd do for anybody who mattered to him. It's because there could have been another way. Things could have still worked out without any of this. You didn't have to be so reckless.
He has to believe that.) ]