[He certainly feels like it is. It's been a while since he's talked about his problems, and it's not exactly good for his digestion. His hands twitch as he feels the need to ball his fists, but consciously stops it from happening.
Calm. He needs to be calm. Too much emotion won't help.
He notices Hikaru looking at him concernedly and waves an airy hand, as if to say, bah, 'tis nothing.]
Don't worry about me, Hikaru-kun. I'll be fine. You chose me after a fashion, after all. I'm sure we'll find out I'm made of sterner stuff. Worry about yourself, and the way you're pushing yourself so hard.
[Well, that's a bit contradictory with what he just told him...]
I mean, I understand, even agree with, what you're doing. But try not to overdo it? People are relying on you. Heck, people care about you.
He stabs a finger in Hikaru's direction.]
Remember that it is always up to you to choose how you see yourself. Weapon first, or human first? That's always been up to you. In my humble opinion, you're human, plain and simple. More human than most of us, probably, since you've had more practice at it than almost everyone. And the thing about humans is, we die. You die. Ergo, human. It need not be more complicated than that.
[That pronouncement has the ring of an article of faith, but in actuality, he means it to be a statement of fact. Planets orbit the sun. Forces magic helps me manipulate gross energies. The sun rises in the east. Hikaru Shinta is human.]
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Calm. He needs to be calm. Too much emotion won't help.
He notices Hikaru looking at him concernedly and waves an airy hand, as if to say, bah, 'tis nothing.]
Don't worry about me, Hikaru-kun. I'll be fine. You chose me after a fashion, after all. I'm sure we'll find out I'm made of sterner stuff. Worry about yourself, and the way you're pushing yourself so hard.
[Well, that's a bit contradictory with what he just told him...]
I mean, I understand, even agree with, what you're doing. But try not to overdo it? People are relying on you. Heck, people care about you.
He stabs a finger in Hikaru's direction.]
Remember that it is always up to you to choose how you see yourself. Weapon first, or human first? That's always been up to you. In my humble opinion, you're human, plain and simple. More human than most of us, probably, since you've had more practice at it than almost everyone. And the thing about humans is, we die. You die. Ergo, human. It need not be more complicated than that.
[That pronouncement has the ring of an article of faith, but in actuality, he means it to be a statement of fact. Planets orbit the sun. Forces magic helps me manipulate gross energies. The sun rises in the east. Hikaru Shinta is human.]