003. and in every raindrop... // open post.

[icarusalsoflew]

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[icarusalsoflew]

Ah. Guess they figured that you'd find out eventually.

[Or end up looking for yourself. Or... well. End up in a dream.

Changeling, sigh.]

She's the reincarnation of the only woman I ever married.

[therealbrianna]

I don't really press for sensitive information. At least not from the people I care about.

Or if I can't do anything about it. [ Which rarely happens. ]

Oh. Uhm. But. [ Taps her nails on her mug, tilting her head to the side while thinking of something to say. Reincarnation?! ]

So did your feelings for your previous wife come back after finding out?

[icarusalsoflew]

I think they were always there, even before I realized who she was.

[Taking another drag, looking thoughtful.]

It's just... difficult. You see, I... well. [It never gets easy, admitting to this.] She died by my hands.

[therealbrianna]

[ Damn, that's really sad. Beginning to feel bad that he's carrying all that weight and still be there for everyone that needs saving. ]

Oh. Wow... That is difficult.
But... Don't you ever think that you're holding on too much on the guilt you're feeling?

[icarusalsoflew]

It used to be that way, to be honest. Now, I can say that I really do love her for who she is.

[But. Well.

Right, okay. Smoking now.]

She doesn't really want to believe me. Or maybe she does, and that's what scares her.

[therealbrianna]

[ This is like high school relationship drama, but only on a larger scale. Way larger scale. ]

But...

[ She's thinking twice; should she ask or not? ... Oh what the heck right? ]

Would you know if she loves you back?

[icarusalsoflew]

I'm pretty sure she does.

[Feelings suck.]

[therealbrianna]

[ Ouch. ]

Wait, so you love her, and she loves you, but you still don't want to be together?

[ For Brianna, the hardest part of a relationship is actually finding somebody to love who loves you back. ]

[icarusalsoflew]

She doesn't, apparently.

[Apparently. I need some time, and all that.]

It's... [Trailing off, chuckling. This is funny, in a really fucked up way.] Yes, it sounds trite. But it's complicated.

[therealbrianna]

[ This is news to her. Usually, two people that love each other (or even like each other to a certain extent) just naturally get together... right? ]

Well. Shouldn't you be... Uhm, chasing her til she says yes?

[ A brief pause. ]

Shouldn't we all be chasing after what we want?

[icarusalsoflew]

Believe me, I have been trying to chase after her.

[Putting his cigarette out now, and going for another. He lights up and takes a drag before speaking again.]

But everybody gets tired of trying. Even me.

[therealbrianna]

[ Small smile upon recalling a certain memory. ]

I had a classmate once who would go to the house of the girl he was going for everyday til she finally said yes.

And... You know...

[ She lights up another cigarette as well. Her brain's been too preoccupied trying to comprehend the situation to remember. ]

...the situation won't change unless the people in them do, yknow?
Besides, sometimes I overhear her asking about you or asking how you've been. I'd like to believe that she does care.
Somewhere deep down, she wants to be with you, I just know it.

[icarusalsoflew]

I hope you're right.

[He really, really, REALLY does. Turning away, taking another drag, exhaling with a sigh.]

This is hard.

[therealbrianna]

[ No shit it's hard. o_o

She leans forward, propping both elbows on the table. ]

So what exactly are you going to do about it?

[icarusalsoflew]

I need to give myself some time. She's cut me loose, and honestly? It's been crazy down here. I'd rather not be hasty.

[Especially with something like this. Someone like her.]

That's reasonable, right?

[He is honest about asking Brianna for her opinion. He knows that he can be stupid with this sort of thing.]

[therealbrianna]

Yeah, that sounds reasonable. 'Wouldn't want to ruin a good thing' is what they say, right?

[ She slightly tilts her head down and looks Hikaru in the eye for this. ]

Just not too much time, okay?

[ Then she looks away. ]

They say it's difficult to tell when the perfect time is so people keep slacking off, waiting, but I don't believe in all that crap.
You'll know it when it comes.

[icarusalsoflew]

[That makes his smile come a little easier.]

I do solemnly swear to make a move when I have to.

[...Even if it means walking away from them.]

[therealbrianna]

[ Finally, a smile! She was starting to feel bad for dragging him out just to make him speak up about his feelings. ]

Yeah you should! [ More like you better. Sounds like you're waaay too in love with her to just let her go like that. ]

[ She takes a last puff from her cigarette and kills it. ]

It's just not nice to see my friends and family stressed out over something, yknow? I always feel the need to at least do something for them. [ Shrugs. ] I can't help it.

[icarusalsoflew]

That's something we have in common.

[Leaning back.]

Really, though. Thanks for this.

[He didn't even realize that he needed to talk to somebody properly until it actually happened. And he trusts Brianna, so.]

[therealbrianna]

[ Although I'm sure you've done far more than I have for more people.

She throws him a warm smile. ]

It's no problem.
Besides, I'd scrap all my plans to be there for when my loved ones are in need!

[ You'd know how it is.

She's still digesting everything that has happened and everything that's been said.
A part of her can't believe that THE Blade King would confide in her despite the number of buddies he has that he's known for a longer period of time.

She feels warm and fuzzy inside. ]

[icarusalsoflew]

Should I start referring to you as another one of my daughters, then?

[Man that was a load off of his shoulders. Just enough to make him capable of being charming and mean it.]

[therealbrianna]

[ Her eyes widen into her shocked puppy dog mode at that, and she immediately leans a bit closer, both hands on the table. Urgent stuff. ]

You mean it?!

[ Plsplsplsplsplspls that would be so cool o m g plsplspls. ]

[icarusalsoflew]

I wouldn't say it if I didn't.

[And why not, right?]

[therealbrianna]

Aww! [ She gushes. Then she hugs her new daddy. ]

This is the best day ever!

[ I mean, minus the sad parts but still they led to this so yes this is pretty neat! ]

[icarusalsoflew]

[The hug honestly catches him by surprise. There's a minute pause before he's patting her on the back and smiling.

So maybe he's missed doting on a cute girl. Just maybe.]

Warning, though: I do suck at being a father.

[His tone is light, but. Well. It's true? Or so he likes to think.]